Shrouded in Darkness

As much as I like to think that there is light at the end of the tunnel, i find no end in the tunnel I'm in. Walking on and on, then realize I'm back at where I started off. Am I progressing, or am I deteriorating?

Who will understand this feeling? Shinji Ikari probably does. He tries hard to gain recognition from his father, doing things that others tell him to do. Despite receiving praises from many people, he found that he is still him because his father was still unmoved. Even so, he's still well-loved by many anime fans and I'm still a nobody.